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if she would move in, or what Border s new job would be.
Hell, they d been so focused on not rocking the boat, they d knocked the damn thing over& as
well as knocking her up.
Bile filled her mouth again, and she sniffed, refusing to let the tears fall. She was Maya freaking
Montgomery; she would not cry. Crying was for the weak.
And if she truly believed that, she wouldn t be a Montgomery.
Yet, if she cried, it would make it all that much more real. She put her empty hand on her stomach
and closed her eyes. This can t be happening, she told herself once again. Why couldn t she wake up
from this dream, this nightmare?
She pinched her arm and cursed when all she ended up with was a red mark and the twinge of
pain that told her this was all too real. There would be no waking up from this. There would only be
the consequences of her decisions.
In all her life, she never thought she d be one of those girls that ended up pregnant accidently.
She d thought she was smart, untouchable. She d been on birth control not only to regulate her
periods, but because she damn well liked sex, and had since she was seventeen. She always used
condoms except with Border and Jake. And when the freaking condom had broken, she d told herself
her birth control would handle it so she hadn t even looked into the morning-after pill.
Because of her lack of planning and poor decisions, she would be having a baby in nine months,
and she still didn t know where she stood with the two men in her life.
Maya knew there were other options to take care of this. Adoption and abortion, for sure, but
honestly, she knew that neither of those were for her. She couldn t end this pregnancy because she
was out of sorts. If she d been younger, unsure of herself and her position in the world, that might
have been an option. The same could be said of adoption at that point.
But she wasn t some twenty-year-old college student without options. Just because she didn t
know who the father was or how Border and Jake would react, didn t mean she had to make rash
decisions.
And yet, as she put her hand on her stomach once more, she knew she couldn t give this up,
couldn t stop what had come to her and changed her so quickly. She was going to have a baby.
What she would do with that? How she would cope? She had no freaking clue.
The sound of a door slamming brought her out of her thoughts, and she sucked in a breath. She
scrambled up, the pregnancy tests scattering across the floor. She cursed and tried to gather them up,
but she d been an idiot and had taken too many. The guys couldn t find out now, couldn t find out this
way. Tears finally slid down her cheeks, and she didn t bother to wipe them away. There wasn t
enough time. She never had enough time.
She threw four of the tests away and was about to pick up the other three when the bathroom door
opened. Fuck her for not locking it, but she d been in a state and numb. Not to mention, this was her
freaking apartment.
What s up, baby? Jake asked before he froze. His gaze landed on the multiple tests in her hands
and the others sticking out of the trash. She was kneeling on the floor, tears running down her face, her
hair disheveled and panties dangling around one ankle since she d been a little stressed during the
last few rounds of tests.
He called me baby, she thought. Baby. Oh, there was a baby all right, and it wasn t her. And
maybe if she hadn t been having a panic attack or stroke at the moment, she d have said something
like that to diffuse the tension. Instead, she opened her mouth like a fish and tried to suck in air.
It didn t seem to be working too well.
Border slid in behind Jake and looked down at her state before meeting her gaze. She blinked,
trying to come up with words, but couldn t seem to think of anything to say.
Maya, Border whispered. Take deep breaths, honey. He knelt in front of her, taking the tests
from her and handing them to Jake.
I peed on those.
Oh, yes, classy. Of all the things to say in this situation, mentioning her urine ranked right up there
with a lobotomy.
Jesus, she needed to get her mind in the game or she d break. Though she wasn t sure she hadn t
broken yet.
I think that s how these things work, Jake croaked. You got her? He seemed to be talking to
Border just then, but Maya wasn t sure what she was seeing. In fact, she couldn t see through her tears
at all.
Border nudged at her ankle, and she sighed so she could slip on her panties. Classy, she thought
again. Oh, so classy. He slid his arm under her knees and around her shoulders before picking her up
to his chest. She let out a squeak and wrapped her arms around his neck.
I m too heavy, she rasped.
It seems you might be getting a bit heavier shortly. He said the damn words so calmly that she
wasn t sure what he was thinking. That was the case with Border, though. She was never sure what he
was thinking. Why weren t the guys freaking the hell out as she was?
That thought dried up her tears, and she was finally able to focus on what was actually going on
around her. Jake stood in her living room, her tests clutched in his hands. The veins in his forearm
stood out, and on any other day, she d have thought that was sexy. Yet right then, all she could see was
the strain.
Border remained silent as he set her down on her feet. When he d done that in the past, he d
always wrapped an arm around her waist and held her close. This time, however, he took two steps
backward, the distance between them as cavernous as the emotional break within her heart.
They were looking at her but not seeing anything. No one spoke, the tension in the room rising
with each passing moment. She was finally able to catch her breath, the numbness she felt over the
way they were acting spreading throughout her body. That blessed drugged-like feeling allowed her to
think about what she had to do next.
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